Why Homeschool??

So I've been battling this decision since Brielle was BORN!! And now is the last year where I have to DECIDE. And granted I have a whole year. A year to try out homeschool preschool (daily). A year to see if I can discipline myself to stick with something for a whole year and not fizzle out. I get sooooo excited at the prospect of homeschooling. I love education. I love teaching. I love learning. I love watching my kids learn and grow. Here is what I'm struggling with though...

I will need to be incredibly disciplined in how I spend my time. While this will be a challenge for me initially, I believe that by homeschooling and practicing this discipline it will help me and my family thrive in general.

I will be criticized. I'm sure that there will be people who will think that I'm taking something away from my kids. I'll have to work each day to make sure that I am doing the absolute best for my kids and making sure that they are getting a stellar education and also many opportunities to socialize with other children.

Time to myself will be limited. This is a fact of life for me right now that I am learning to deal with. I do have very little time for myself. But I've learned that I need to get the children to bed very early and also leave them with Robert in the evenings so I can go to the library or the store. I know there will be days where I wished my children were in public school. Bu I know that they will be able to learn so much more, be nurtured so much more and that they will be able to thrive at home.

Brielle is excited to start kindergarten and go to school like Kelsy and Breanna. I worry that she will feel gypped by not getting this experience. This is my biggest fear. My hope is that as she gets older she won't feel like this and be happy that she is homeschooled. I've heard from several moms who's kids say they feel sorry for kids who have to go to school and the neighborhood kids are jealous of the homeschooled ones.

Homeschooling is going to take some major self-discipline and sacrifice. It isn't always going to be easy. I will have to remain patient, organized, happy and not squander as much time on the computer or phone. As I'm looking into myself I feel like using my children as a motivator for me I'll be able to push through my tiredness and create this lifestyle that I so very much want. I know that it will be worth it.